Back at one

it's been rather bad lately... have been thinking alot but doing rather little... still trying to recover from the state of shock i was in... now i'll present to u

Life as a Passer-by... Life is passing me by... (Part III)

sometimes, juz sometimes... i get so tired of walking ard on the lonely street full of passers-by... ppl will only let me tag along for so long, then leave me behind again.

I give u a handphone now, something u never had b4. U are moderately happy to have it and began to use it... it becomes a part of ur life, a necessity... when suddenly... after 2 months,

i took it back.

well, the first thought dat comes to the mind is dat u never had it in the first place so u sure can live without it. But little things later will prove otherwise. Ur frens cannot get u, u cannot call ur frens, when u feel extremely happy u cannot share it with ur loved ones immediately, etc etc.

wad i m trying to prove is dat when u had something that u already seen as part of ur life and then suddenly u lost it totally... u'll become dejected, demoralised and lose the will to do anything else except try very hard to fill up the empty space in ur life dat was left behind when the thing is gone. ususally ppl will try to find the same genre of thing to fill back the space created by the same thing they lost.

Handphone with new handphone, Dialup with broad band, and of coz... Gals with Gals (but this is rebound... not good)

anyway life as a passer-by has given me at least some experience lahz... i think i know wad i want... and of coz wad i had lost during this traumatic time lahz... but now dofferent liaoz i dun think i looking for the same thing to fill up wad i had lost, now i'm trying to do something else in an attempt to fill up the empty space in my heart... trying to immerse myself in work lahz...

I M GONNA PIA CHEK!!!! (well... really....)

Cheers,
Yangming, Souless Automaton

N.B. ppl pls dun take my post too literally... it's true to some extent becoz it's based on my experiences... i DO try to make it implicit sometimes to conceal certain private stuffs... yah...